Chapter J

Yesterday a wise man told me
that I haven't closed your chapter.

(Sigh...)
Truth hurts
when you say it out loud.

I don't know what else to do
to "LET IT GO",
to move forward,
to pass the page,
to decorate my poems
with some other name,
to dream with another face,
to substitute the blue melody
you left behind.

For more than a year
I've been catching planes,
I've been busy running;
but I can't escape your memory
I can't forget all those things
that made me fall.

I climbed the Eiffel Tower
but you were there with me.
In Santorini
watching the sunset
you were there singing for me.

I thought I was getting there,
I thought it was over,
but yesterday I realized
that I'm still pronouncing your name
with a smile on my face,
I'm still reading the same page of that book,
I'm still listening to your music,
I still remember your voice...

and even worse,
I'm still waiting...

I can see a tear
every now and then,
I look for your name,
I want to know
that you still there, somewhere,
breathing, singing, laughing...

I'm still pronouncing your name
with a smile on my face,
I'm still reading the same page of that book,
I'm still listening to your music,
I still remember your voice...

and even worse,
I'm still waiting...

I'm still waiting...

Damn! It hurts to admit it.

I'm still waiting for you...